Monday, October 5, 2015
I was ready to go to practice today. Ankle be damned. ~Working Memory 16th Percentile~ I need roller derby, and if I really thought it was going to damage it further I would have stayed off of it. ~Processing Speed 18th percentile~ I was ready to go to to practice today all the way through dinner. It was after dinner that I opened the manila envelope with 15 pages of test results. ~ Social Cognition Severe Range~ Very little of it was surprising. But that didn't make it easier. ~Social Awareness Severe Range~ Inertia carried me all the way to practice, and then I found I just couldn't. ~ Repetitive Behaviors Severe Range~ My brain is too full of scores and percentages; labels and descriptions of all of the ways my child is not normal. ~Inhibition Dysfunction Highly Elevated~ I am a cryer. There is no way around that. And today I would have cried at practice. ~Emotional Control Dysfunction Highly Elevated~ And so I went home to read and re-read. To decide if I have any right to carve out these nights of practice when there are so many holes to be filled. ~Metacognition Dysfunction Highly Elevated~ Money to come up with. ~Global Executive Dysfunction Highly Elevated~ Treatment plans to begin and follow through with. Appointments to make weekly. Surprise calls from the principal to field while grocery shopping. I was going to go to practice today, but I just couldn't.