Sunday, June 3, 2018

These hands

The knowledge that more than likely, I will die by these hands someday...t

Friday, May 18, 2018


You are a brick wall.
I throw arrows out of desperation,
In love and hate.
But they bounce off and
Stab me instead.

Sunday, May 13, 2018


Empty holes
All here inside
Tears are bound
To burst me wide.
Why can’t I find
My way with friends
And trust their love
Won’t quickly end?
So much fear
And shame in me
I feel like all
Around can see.
I hide in shadow
From all who care
I don’t know how
To meet them there.
Empty holes
All here inside
The pain and fear

Will burst me wide.

Thursday, May 10, 2018

Beneath the stars

Star light,
Star bright, 
how I wish
For peace tonight.
My heart is broken
Things seem dark
But in the sky
I see God’s Mark.
I wish I may
I wish I might
Find the strength

To stay tonight.

Thursday, April 19, 2018


When I ask myself why I don’t try harder to get better, I think I realize I don’t deserve to get better. I am still just waiting to die. I am really struggling today. Not to stay alive but to not hurt myself and to not just stay in bed.

Friday, April 13, 2018

The Moon

The Moon told me that he would shine
If I would lift my eyes.
They rose up liquid, pulled
as if they were the tide.

He held my gaze until the morn
when the lemon Sun stepped in.
Still I felt the lingering soft
of his silver on my skin.

Monday, March 26, 2018


None can help 
This mind of mine
The pieces are
Too shattered
And sharp.
None can take
In all of me
The weight 
I carry is
Just too much.
And so I choose
Life or death?
Solitude and 
And strength
I haven’t got,
Or death and 
Of family
And faith
And soon 
To be forgot.